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completely relaxed, lol

As you all know, we've had a doggie named Boomer living with us temporarily. He's our friends dog and they moved to Cayman about 7 months ago and had to leave him here until all his health certificates and stuff went through and got cleared by both the Bahamas and Grand Cayman. It's super hard NOT to fall in love with him since he's got one of the best personalities. I was never one to feed the dog from the table, begging was not tolerated, getting on the couch and in our bed what an absolute no no....until Boomer. I fed him EVERYTHING, let him sleep in bed with us, covered him with blankets, gave him a pillow for his head on the couch when he napped, bought so many stupid toys I felt like I had a 2 yr old, made pancakes with no chocolate chips in them for him and with chocolate chips for us, i'm pretty sure I went against my better judgment and completely spoiled him. But, life was good and we had everything down to a science here. We knew when he moved a certain way or made a face or sat infront of us what it all ment, and he knew us the exact same way, he knew if we got the laptop out to watch a movie in bed, he could come up, if no laptop, he'd wait to be invited. It's so weird when a dog knows your exact routine and sometimes is waiting ahead of you in the next room because he knows you're going there next to take a shower. He knew on Sundays after the beach he had to go from the car, right upstairs, and to the bath. No fighting required as much as he hated it, he would sloooooowly step in and wait patiently for me to get his towel and shampoo. Life was great with Boomer, but we knew the time was coming that he'd have to move.

bath time...patiently waiting

Last weekend I went to Freeport for 2 reasons, 1 for work and 2 because I couldn't see Boomer leave. Darin brought him to Cayman so I would of been home alone for 4 days, and I just couldn't do it. I probably started crying ohhh about a month before he left. He probably thought I was crazy how much I snugged with him and how many tears fell on his head. I went to Orlando for about 2 weeks and probably had about 4 breakdowns lol. He's been gone for a week and it's so odd with out him here. He used to jump at palm trees out the window and when we pass that tree now, I get all chocked up. Nobody begs for food, sticks his head in and watches me shower and nobody to snug with in bed. Just little things like the bathroom door opening because of him all the time and today it opened because of the wind and for a split second I thought it was boomer. Darin came home the other day, opened the door and said "BOOOMIE!!!" all excited, then realized he wasn't there and looked at me and says "that was really weird, I was expecting him to be here". It's so crazy how a dog can hold your entire heart and never have to speak a word to you, and yes now i'm crying :)  It's unreal the feeling of loss you have when your pet dies, or in my case your temporary one moves, the emotional roller coaster you go on for days or weeks after.


So of course we've started looking for another dog. We had a great pick of the litter in 2 months, but the dog ended up breeding with someone else's dog instead of our friends who was going to let us pick one. We thought it was one of those "there's a reason for everything" moments, but then found out we don't get to pick one, so now we're waiting for another "there's a reason for everything" moment. We'll find the right dog for us, and if it's months away then there was a reason for waiting. We also don't want to rush into another dog, because still torn up emotionally, we'd prob compare it to Boomer and the poor dog wouldn't have a chance. I think giving it some time will be more fair to our next dog. The humaine society here actually has some nice dogs, we're just not sure if we want one from here or to deal with everything and bring one from the states. I'm sure i'll keep you all up to date like prego people do, but I, with doggie updates.

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Mother Theresa via window curtain

waiting for the palm tree attack!

beach excitement

Boomer 1, palm tree 0

snug time

not sure, he just always did this

chillin with the paw up

beach bum

lol

looking for the invisible ball Darin threw

such a cute water dog

my sister laura walking Boom

We miss you Boomies!!


Thanks Em and Chad for letting us have him for as long as we did. It's hard to let go, but it's just because he's so awesome!! He was well taken care of :) promise!!

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I've been home for a little more than a week, so I think it's time to write. A lot happened in Orlando since I was there for almost 2 1/2 weeks. It started out fun and great and slowly started to get frustrating and lonely. Here's a quick recap:

I got in on a Monday, and the next few days following that, I went to lunch with my dad and brother, saw Craig at his new Mercedes job and saw my dad at his Honda job, slept over at Teya's house to spend time with her and Bryleigh, went to the last winning magic game and signed myself up for life ins. Later in the week was our friends Liz & Brian's wedding. I was happy to throw the "rehearsal" dinner, I say it with "" because there wasn't a real rehearsal dinner, so I threw a "night before the wedding day dinner". I surprised them with some little decorations to make it more personal. It was really cute, and we had a great time, went out for wine later and then I got to stay with the bride in the hotel the night before. It was special being there with Liz to help her get ready and see her get into her dress. The wedding was a small one, but had a very pretty location and GREAT food!! Saturday and Sunday I didn't do much. I had a full week ahead of me, my sister's b-day party, Sea World, Island of Adventure, meet people for dinner, lunch and wine nights. 

Liz & Brian Oberdick!!

Justin, Teya & I at the last winning Magic game of the season

Bryleigh & I in front of the dolphin tank @ Sea World

Laura, our cousin Carlin & I

What I've finally realized: Where I live and who I married, are exactly where and who i'm supposed to be with. The one person that will never "cancel" on me, who cares about my feelings and our life together is Darin, and being here with him, and it being only him and I is the perfect place to be. Although I had a great time at the theme parks and at Laura's b-day party, the week started out on a downward take. Darin's been gone for almost 2 years and i've been gone for 1 year next month. I don't know if it's because Darin didn't come back with me or something but the visit felt different this time. It almost feels like our friends have moved on in life with out us. I mean, I guess it happens when everyone's lives change. I just didn't expect to get canceled on and left out of things. I felt so bad one night I begged a friend to get wine with me just so I didn't have to sit at home all night. It's a horrible feeling to go home and beg for friends and have to call everyone and invite yourself to things, when I think it should be the other way around. I think if we're visiting, people would call us and do the inviting and plan making. It felt pretty crappy to be left out of things, you feel so unwanted when nobody takes an extra step to call you. I used to be excited to go to Orlando because we have no friends here in Nassau, so seeing our friends in Orlando was always something I looked forward to and was excited about....I may not be so excited to go to Orlando next time, but i'll still be happy to go, i'm just not going to make an effort making plans anymore and put myself in that kind of situation. If people want to see us, if they miss us, they'll just have to call.

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Sorry it's been a few weeks. I was home for almost 2 1/2 weeks and now home for a week and still catching up at my "job", laundry and cleaning. I have stuff to say and pictures to post so stay tuned, i'll try to write something in the next few days!