To find out or not to find out....that's our issue lately. A long time ago I used to say I was finding out the sex because I just had to know, my personality is a planner and organizing maniac so it seemed only right that I must find out this info when it came time. Darin didn't want to know at all, pff what does he know!! Since living in the Caribbean for 3+ years it's made my obsession with planning every detail a lot less, you have to learn to live by the moments here and to suck in the sea air when you pass and slow down to island time and enjoy everything from foods to traffic to the shell you picked up on the beach. All this "laid backness" has made me not want to find out the sex, I don't need to plan anything, so I don't need to know, i'd rather wait and be surprised in the end. I like neutral colors anyways so I always planned on a neutral room, nothing crazy pink or blue. So here I am, 15 wks pregnant and I know that appointment is coming up quick. Along with me changing my mind to not finding out, Darin has also changed his to wanting to find out so we've completely switched how we felt about the whole "to know or not to know" situation.
I have a feeling i'll probably be the one to give in on this one. Even though I don't want to know I feel like Darin doesn't really have an actual part in this 9 months except to deal with me. He'll never actually get to feel the baby inside, he doesn't go day to day having symptoms (neither do I but still), he won't get uncomfortable because of a belly and although he may understand it all and be super helpful and get to feel the baby kick from the outside, he and all men are kind of helpless. A woman feels everything, good or bad you're connected and that feeling for me will be there everyday all day. I feel like for him to know the sex is a way he'll be able to connect better or relate, calling the baby by it's name or a he or she might help him feel like he's a part of this and better connected to his baby. Plus he says he needs to mentally prepare for a girl if thats what it is, but I somehow think that's all men lol.
We're at the point now when we have to decided what we can get here in our suitcases and what we have to ship, what's cheaper to buy here or what's cheaper to ship.....it's consumed so much of my time this week going back and forth with 2 shipping companies. We decided on all of the furniture to ship, so i've got all the weights and dimensions sent off for a few quotes, so now we wait. My shower won't be until I get to Orlando in Jan so by then I have to decide what I want to bring with me in my suitcase and what I can buy here and what I should have extra at my parents house for when I visit. There are so many things to make decisions on it's a little crazy....i've decided to focus on the shower gifts when it gets closer to that so I don't stress now over it, I think it's gonna be a lot of cash so I can use it here to get the things I can't bring in a suitcase. Living on an island definitely has it's challenges but it's worth it.
17 weeks, and my brother came to visit and also a friend of mine surprised me and flew down with him. I was so excited my brother was coming, I miss him all the time and love him so much so when he wanted to come for his birthday I was so happy!! I got to show them my island...they've been to visit us in the Bahamas but not yet Barbados (which is WAY better of a place to visit and live). We went paddle boarding, ate some local foods, went to plenty of beaches, did an island tour, hung out on the porch one night because Darin got a new smoker and wanted to make some ribs, he's an easy going guy, doesn't take much to please him so it's great when he comes because it's so easy and fun. I was sad to see him go and cried like a baby when I dropped him off but i'll get to see him in a few months....can't wait for him to be an uncle, he's gonna be the best!
Prego Quirks, Symptoms & Info:
*maternity clothes...maybe in a month, things are tight
*frequent bathroom visits
*i gained 1 lb at my 16week apt (WHOA!!)
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